Sometimes I am dizzy with the fullness of our time. I look forward to all we're doing and backward to all that we've done and the pace feels overwhelming. I worry that we can't do it all. I feel like there won't be enough time.
I'm trying, lately, to remember lessons from teachers like Adrienne Maree Brown and Joanna Macy, who've brought to my attention that a narrow understanding of time makes us smaller. Feeling dizzied is an indicator that my view of reality is distorted--like I'm in a fun home with some clever mirrors and diagonal lines. The distortion makes me feel like I don't know how to do something that I actually do all the time--occupy and navigate space. Occupy and navigate time.
Take a deep (deep deep deep so deep) breath into my toes, to ground myself with gratitude, to let my senses and my body slowly sort the distortion from the truth, and to trust that I'm most capable when I choose to inhabit the present moment.
Here I am right now. Present and thinking of y'all.
Lindsey Jayne is a birth doula. She creates and officiates rituals, teaches about the enneagram, and reads poems with you.